I feel you.
Your crying out for help as you have a sever lack of imagination and anger issues and you deal with this by insulting people so that they say things back that justify your terrible social handicap.
Hopefully after watching this, you might be able to consider a future where, in 500 years from now, we can at least get to linking solar panels to electrolysis units for energy overflow instead of feeding a grid at a loss.
And top up electric cars and supplement home batteries with bottled hydrogen like many people currently power their home BBQ systems.
Get inspired, and change you mindset.
Now.. to respond to YOU:
Ridiculous: is the fact i gave such compelling and positive response and information rather than insulting you back out of a sense of offence to your toxic trash. Nobody who speak to you like you did to me, deserves to be given what benefits them, which is counter intuitive to guiding you to be patient, logical or inquisitive, to find out shit like this this.
Unfortunately this means im helping to teach you to be more of a loser, by helping you benefit from acting like that... Im not your mum, Grow up.
As for meds, sure... what you got?
I have tried 80+ of the items listed on this site to assist with MY mental and emotional facilities, especially in response to stress, people who don't respect boundaries, understand logic or give a fuck, so i can still think after someone ropes my guts in an attack that I very clearly feel that I should fight back against.
https://nootropicsexpert.com/nootropics-list/
For you, I'd suggest something like Gingko Biloba... help you "wake up".